Canvas Of Life

What's up!!

2011-09-29T03:01:00.001-07:00

Not referring to the mobile app :p

Been quite a awhile since I last posted.

Hmm... it'd be great to recap a little.

Work.

Work.

Work.

Work.

Awesome.

More work.

Haha. I guess I really need to think on what am I doing...

Cherry blossoms dancing on the summer gale tips.
With soon to be frozen autumn-dyed red projectiles only to shatter into the earth gently.
Silently.

Who can say the order messed up
who can say the messed up was the order.

F# F# F# F#
Chilly. Jumpy. Resonating.

You then realize it is still connected.
No matter how messed up it was.

The answer is just hiding somewhere. Begging to be found.
Spring, summer, autumn, winter. Here is the answer to this question.

:)

For the questions would never end. Neither would life.

Hmm... stuck.

2011-07-25T04:42:00.000-07:00

Feeling no zest to continue. No idea how to start. No idea how it works. No idea how it should work. No idea what to do.

Its as if I don't want to do anything...

or rather I don't wanna do anything hahaha.

No progress I guess. That's why.

I don't exactly have a rough idea. Lost and floating.

Hmm.. it could just be the aftermath. :o

Should I slack 1 more day?

Should I rest 1 more day? Guess it wouldn't hurt.. kekeke.

Hmm but what about the codes? Hmm.. what can I do with them..

I should brainstorm and find out what the client wants me to do with it. Then I can do something with it! :D

Main problem: I am completely clueless of what is going on.
Solution: Its okay, you can always experiment only the required sections.

Come up with a mind-map of what the client wants us to do. With the resources as the key points. By then you should have figured out what to do!

Godspeed! =3

Living sure is hard

2011-07-10T09:15:00.000-07:00

Especially with the ones you treasure.

Unconditional respect? Traditionalist. Sure, I can do that. But friend, you gotta try except the world changes.

What? My world, you never knew. And in retrospect, I can never know yours - well not yet.

I think respect is earned. And yes, I cannot really see that because I couldn't made sense of it till I've matured to a certain point.

Love is never fair.

I could go on forever - if I wanted to. But I guess it wasn't the wisest choice.

I guess what I wanted to say was that everybody has issues. don't assume and don't judge so fast. Don't let out too much. Don't let go too much. For the chameleon is adaptable.

"Even I have secrets I wouldn't tell. I keep it hidden away in my deepest yet familiar place. Because I know how destructive it is, how possessed one can get. Even though it is as secure as it can be, on occasions of visits , I still get tempted to break open the cage; to let it out. "

Cure the cold

2011-07-06T06:15:00.000-07:00

'You're gonna catch a cold, from the ice inside your soul'

Its a bad day.

'Dear it took so long just to feel alright; remember how to put back the lights in my eyes'

I'd like this feeling to go away.

'Who do you think you are, running around leaving scars'

But I can't help it.

I'm just full of angst. I wonder why.

Where'd that strength and confidence go?

And once again, I'd only realize it was despair spun out of nothingness.

A deep breath and fill up all that void.
Even if its only temporary.
It helps.
Words :)

**quotes from Jar of Hearts by Christina Perri.

Just a dream

2011-06-30T16:45:00.000-07:00

Time stopped for me when an unfamiliar memory flooded my premises. I remember learning from someone of great wisdom. Peeling lettuces was the last thing. She was disappointed in me as I somehow did something wrong. She turned her huge back and began to do something.

Moments later, she handed me a piece of leaf. With words of encouragement. I could vaguely remember the contents but it was something like ' don't ever give up ' and ' remain who you are' .

She continued to hand me pieces of paper silently, each of slightly varying contents. I couldn't bear to read them all and only had a few glimpses before I broke down. It has been extremely long since I cried whilst being aware of my surroundings. Flashes of each varying content was about my families I think. 'Don't ever stop being the _______ you are'...

It was suffocating... when I let go, the tears just went on and on. Yearned for a hug but only a back-view. But I think she was smiling. It is times like this when I would think about how lonely can a person be.

Maybe she entered my dreams? Or maybe it was just random story my body generated to save myself. In any case, I do miss her and I love her. The warmth has never died. I forced a smile and stopped the unsightly tears - to show that I am stronger now.

bgm: hwa-shin.

Life.

refresh! refresh! refresh!

2011-05-30T22:16:00.000-07:00

What am I doing? Standing here alone. Staring into the tunnel. Straight smack middle.

good luck and Good Luck ...

shall I take it as a chrysalis? But only how long.

time can solve everything. but time x time.

procrastination. I wait. Till when?

My blood has frozen. I'll need to warm it up once again.

Yes, Good Luck.

I'll see you on thursday :)

What do.

2011-03-24T19:43:00.000-07:00

One medium I'd like to try is to literally re-create my internal reality and fantasies. Motion set into.

Words are nothing but a hint to my episodes. (recap)

Short Ins.

Dancing flames that waver with and without wind;
Clawing, yearning, screaming - delirious.

Each petal-wind duet wanders into the purgatory as if entranced;
Spiraling, accelerating, slowing - waltz.

Acidic red tendrils engulfed each couple like worship;
Crumpling, crumbling, combusting - into a rich shade of death.

Only when the trees are bare will the tendrils rest.
Only when the trees are bare will the couples return to the sky - as ashes.

They will eventually re-unite,
As time goes by.

...if only i had the skills, i'd make an animation of this...

Before I forget..

2011-03-23T07:28:00.000-07:00

2011 22 march, Tuesday it starts.

For everyday I will stick to my desire.

How long will this stand, how far can I go...

Leave it at 51 then.

14 more to go! C'mon!!!

Marked.

No, can't do

2011-03-04T07:08:00.001-08:00

Perhaps its because I'm trying to clear the this delusion of mine.

Perhaps its because I'm trying to delude myself.

I don't know. But I do know, that this can't do.

To move up is all I have left. Because I've already let go of everything.

No, this can't do. If I were to chain down myself, it'd be too sad - because I have nothing to lose. I let go of it.

Greed, is necessarily negative?

I drenched the chains with petrol.
I lit the flame.
I let sparks fly.

I could feel the heat; burning me.
The chains melted.
Scars were left.

But these scars would heal sometime.
For they are not scars of regret.

with that, I fly.

See more!

2011-01-26T08:09:00.000-08:00

I guess this is what they mean by "the world is never big enough for your eyes only".

Hmm.. I just happened to be able to do it. But not exactly what I want to do.

Another choice...

From here on, gain more exposure!

Inspiring!!!

2011-01-23T03:49:00.000-08:00

"I never paint dreams or nightmares. I paint my own reality." ~Frida Kahlo

"Maybe you feel powerless and broken, like Frida might have after her life-changing accident. You might think everyone around you is more talented. It might seem like the odds are against you.

But if you share your passion and your inner life in a way that’s remarkable, people could still be talking about you 100 years from now."

- source: copyblogger

Awesome read.

Insecure

2011-01-19T00:51:00.000-08:00

Uncertainty.

Is it harder with uncertainty and uncertainty?

Or is it harder with certainty and uncertainty.

Which will fall. Down into the depths of oblivion.

Its scary. I wanna stay in love with my sorrow...

At least. Just stay sane.

Like a ricochet...

2011-01-04T05:06:00.000-08:00

I kept asking "Why?".

Repeat. repeat. repeat. Boring.

"To hone your skills requires a master but to tame your mind could only be yourself" said someone of many experiences.

Then again, I revisited the literalness of "World-Skills".

Ouch, my ego got stabbed.

It wasn't about what I was thinking. I was in the wrong direction...

It wasn't about creation. It was about... skills.

Yeah, it ain't my style. But then again, the taste of success was like ambrosia. So... *melts*.

The more the merrier!!! I shall not give up! Motivation upped.

Promise me this: that I will go all out. These 3 weeks. Its more than enough is it? Nah, don't doubt yourself. You know you have something there.

I shall sharpen my blade held with pure elegance; sheer precision.
So shall I dance,
amongst the shower of sakura petals
under the glowy moonlight.
So will I dance solely,
with a tree as my companion tonight
under the silvery moonlight.

What a night.

Zen

2011-01-01T08:50:00.000-08:00

In Zen Buddhism there is a commonly held belief: The Universal Truth.

"People will look for the easy way so much, that they will miss the right way"

True, true and so true ^^

bye 2010, hello 2011!

2010-12-31T04:11:00.000-08:00

2010, I found another forte.

That's another new thing I learn about myself :)

2010, I met soul friends.

That's what mattered the most :)

Thanks doks! For turning my life around. Though not shinning at my greatest yet, but will!! soon!!

Welcome 2011. Hoping for a dynamic entry. By Febuary/11, I'll prove to myself how far I could go.

Borrowing the past to build my present. Even if I fall, I would recover even faster than ever ^^v.

Whenever I should read this post again, don't forget to reminisce the fun times. Smile, laugh and go on!!

Achievement

2010-12-30T21:54:00.001-08:00

"To not have intentionally left an achievement is the greatest achievement".

Meaningful. :D

Lull.

2010-10-24T08:36:00.000-07:00

A lullaby of lies.

I am going to try sleep.

Coaxing myself with paradox.

The sounds reverberate crisply.

Ironically, its just I.

Emotional aesthetics.

I paint along with time.

The picture of my life.

My story;
no one else's.

Honestly sometimes, I'd rather not paint.

Honestly sometimes, I prefer to be painted.

Honestly sometimes.... lies, lie and lied.

Noticed?

2010-10-17T21:34:00.000-07:00

People fantasize about the end before it starts. (naive)

People dread the start before it begins. (contradict)

People assure themselves before the results. (regret)

People lie to themselves to stay true. (reverberation)

The world continues to spin round and round. (will)

Like us living, going eternally 360 degrees. (am)

Don't think!

2010-09-28T08:45:00.000-07:00

Title states otherwise.

What am I doing?

Sprawled across the grass refusing to budge. The fence at the middle doesn't want to edge near me. I despair.

The look of my eyes. Where's the mirror?

A reflection. Seemingly ethereal entity.

So fragile as if it would shatter upon the slightest accidental brush.

The pieces that scatter on the aftermath. I'm waiting for it to revert back to it's former glory.

Staring into space

2010-09-15T05:42:00.000-07:00

As I restlessly revolved in my seat, the TV outside continues its same routine of entertainment.
Look outside the window and never greeted by a breeze.
Dark ink blotches move to and fro as if mocking me; they just continue to slide without asymmetry. Like clones of robots from the somewhat nearing possible future.

Ok, the truth is, that was my imagination.

As I mindlessly revolved in my seat, the fan near me hums monotonously; with a deadpan expression.
I stare at the screen and think of blanks.
Ideas idea~ where are you?
Like a lightning strike, it suddenly hit me.
"OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH"!
My arms shook and my face was trembling. I had to pen it down now!
With my trusty blue pen (actually only 70 cents lah) and a piece of blank, I documented it.

God, I swear I hate my drawing skills. They look so horrendous that I probably wouldn't recognize them in the next moment. (self denial...?)

I realized it and...
My jaws dropped.

I had finally finished. My masterpiece!!
The next moment, it wasn't enough. Hey... it doesn't look nice at all.
"AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH"!
Like always, my mind started fading to black. Blocking out... whatever was right.

Lost little lamb with nowhere to go. I think it is right. To describe I.

Ah~ When would the breeze come again?

Till then, I should be researching methods to beckon it at my will shouldn't I? :)

Yeah, I got it

2010-08-28T10:13:00.000-07:00

They say to live is for oneself.

But in this world, there are rules.

Because of these rules there are rulers.
Because of these rulers there are erasers.
Because of these erasers, there are the pens.
Because of these pens there are the liquid papers.
Because of these liquid papers, there are highlighters.

No, not talking about stationery here. But the roles which people play. Well, not all but some.

I guess... I would be the highlighter. But I really wish I could be the eraser....

Losing sight.

2010-08-15T02:44:00.000-07:00

Whilst walking forward, I paused.

The path I am treading on seemed very much ethereal. Wherehasrealitygone?

Each step seemed so ... dreamy. Like swimming in the air(y).

I struggle to keep my feet firmly on the ground. My satisfaction. It falls through the floor (ghost).

Wait, is this reality?

I look at the floor. I see my feet.

Where is the mirror? I need to see if I'm still there. But I would have guessed deep down inside. That its fading. As if forced to. Desperately crawling to reflect itself.

Who's boss?

Whose lenses bestowed this sight?

Doubt and doubt and doubt. Why not doubt(s)? Because deep down, either (I) knows that, every one of them exists.

Jotting down what (I) am thinking saves me from fading into oblivion alone. As my guide. As my visible guardian angel. As my legible intuition.

So which direction do I have to go in now?

Light sliced through the clouds as the path eventually restored to its former glory.

I guess I'll just have to keep on treading forward until I finally step on a solid and footing. And from there on, I will embrace it and extend. Till then, who is to say I can only try to be the master of 1?
After all, wasn't it I who convinced that I was the jack of many trades but master of none?

Are I?

2010-07-24T09:47:00.000-07:00

Why are (I) you so forward? Like always before they happen you think they might ?

Why are you (I) so down? Like always before they happen you think they would ?

Is it because y(i)u are crazy? Or is it because the world is crazy? Its either me or them. Or maybe both.

I need to get pass this week. This hellish week.

This really really crazy week.

Please, smile again lest you (I) fall. Down and deep till the depths the known. The unknown can wait. (lol).

You. need. to. let. go !

Time takes it toll. So you can take time's toll. :D

I'LL DRAG YOU AROUND LIKE A BITCH!

Missing. Like. Who?

2010-07-18T08:25:00.000-07:00

When the rain falls, you question: " I hate you rain". But the rain screams: "Damn why did I drop on this thing".

Then if I merged the perspectives together. It would be followed by a "sorry" and then "giggles".

Some times I really wonder. Am I really missing out on the world? But well, why do I see so much more ? Is it perhaps, time that is of the essence?

No wait, the world is missing out on me. Because I'd rip it apart and break it into pieces.

Like a needle through a balloon fortified with tape. It doesn't go "boom". But the needle goes through. Like literally, "going through experience".

Fix it, but I'm out. I get, you lose.

I guess there is just "this" much balloons to poke through in "so little time". Its a lifetime of time. Like, lifetime of TIME. Get it? ;)

Hehe

2010-06-20T00:50:00.000-07:00

The world seems so small in your head.

But when your head let in the world, it freaks you out.

Which reality are you talking about? When you tell me to come back?

Hmm..

Symmetry

2010-06-03T04:14:00.000-07:00

A line drawn.

Split. cleanDivide. Split.

I look at I.

I was nowhere to be found while I woke.

Revolving round. Round and Round.

Round and Round and Round and Round.

Roulette.

I held the reins of I.

Till I wake up once again.

It keeps me wondering. Only when I am I.

fin.

Live

2010-05-08T01:54:00.000-07:00

Everyone has a clock in each of its time.

Its only a question of 'when'.

Then it would fall and fall,

Fall and shatter into fragments.

These fragments would pierce deeply,

When you lived, where, whom, how.

With a jolt of electricity you would be living again.

Not in you but in where you were.

You shall not fade yet. You have two lives.

Till time takes its toll; you are living still.

But alas when time takes its toll again; then you will die.

However, legends live on forever.

Those lives are being extended. Yes, presently.

Infinitely possible.

It would be nice to be a legend. :)

fin~.

The line.

2010-04-08T17:37:00.000-07:00

China Shan-dong trip ended. Back in SG this date.

Deep Read (i)

Though have the petals scrunched up,
Closed like shy-ed away from us they were.
A shame it wasn't,
For we would be leaving a trail of bloom.

A shame it shouldn't;
be.

Stretch

2010-03-28T08:23:00.000-07:00

Unprecedented; for "I" will fall because of "I".

When its about birds of a feather flock together, it is just too sad. Like how they would not be able to attach themselves elsewhere.

"Don't leave me alone!"

"I'm tired dear.. I can't take it anymore. Let me go"

"No! You cannot do that! Because of you, I fell into the deep labyrinth of black. Only we can love each other now. Only you are able to love me now... so, please.. don't go..."

"I... 'm sorry... I'll stay. I'll stay for I am what I made you."

Only a mother can love... the blackened heart.

What is heaven when it turned out to be hell?

Humans.

Hold

2010-03-15T23:19:00.000-07:00

What have I gotten myself into..

I am hanging on the ledge of a cliff and each movement I take, the cliff chips.

Its all right, I shall hold on to whatever that is left until I slip and fall;
falling down with no regrets.

Until then, I shall be salvaging whenever I can;
mend the holes for it'll tear.

Tearing rocks from the hanging edge of a cliff...
I am my bane as I desperately crawl.

Until there appeared a sturdy ledge;
I shall be struggling to keep my ass.

THIS-DAY-MARKED!

2010-03-12T00:23:00.000-08:00

Tis a long but surprising day.

Keep up :)

Distinctions!!!!!!!!!! :D

Once upon an Insight

2010-03-11T00:51:00.000-08:00

When accidents happen,

Both needed to vent it.
There wasn't anything else... personal(?)
Both of them were being maligned.
You play boxer, I play bag.

"Ah, what can I do?" one says.
"There was just too much hate.. pressure. Do I hold it in and let you go?"
"No! It is not fair. Just shut up and be my punching bag for a little while..."

"I'm sorry... I know words won't cut it" other says.
"I can only do this much... the guilt, I need to"
"Yes, this is what I do. Close my eyes and turn oblivious to the scene..."

Like how energy cannot be destroyed, it just gets passed on or absorbed. Hate, anger, grudge, sorrow etc. "Let me share your burden" =/= "Let me get rid of your burden". For all we know, its all there and just so coincidentally, that oblivion was a choice.

Oblivious, silence... shut up... When nobody knows, they assume. So piquing someone's assumption is not good. Though our initial premonition was all something else different.

Naivety? Or was it, Pride. It makes one wonder why humans have features that contradict and amaze alternating.

Its still beautiful nonetheless. :)

Realization

2010-02-23T08:01:00.000-08:00

Hybrids no good?

Took me long enough to figure it out. I actually could bring something new to the table already.

English and Designing... Am I good at either? Not really. But

English+Designing = Engsigning.

Whats that? Don't think it exists. But then again, its something NEW. No? :D

Continue to

2010-02-19T01:12:00.000-08:00

Smash boundaries.

The time... doesn't wait for me. So I shall run with it.

Seeking

2010-02-18T06:01:00.000-08:00

I am looking for recognition. Not fame.

1?. Hunter and Hunted.

2010-02-15T02:00:00.000-08:00

Clad in a red cocktail dress, she lept from the window which was already shattered by the impact of the sonic boom earlier. She wasn't ready for this at all. She landed in one piece and quickly regained her balance. They were coming. She took one last glance at her home. Ex-home rather. She ran to the shed and armed herself with whatever she could find. "Gah! this should do. " She sliced up a pieces of old curtain a makeshift sash. "This is making too much time... " she muttered. She rummaged the compartments and tucked a gardening scythe to her side. She heard approaching footsteps. "Damn! Already?!" She threw her heels and ran barefooted out into the woods through the backdoor. Tears that were streaming down her face looked like glowing beads of crystals under the full moon. Her flowing long black hair contrasted with her pale complexion. The perfection of imperfection. Her silhouette resembled that of a fallen goddess.

A loud roar could be heard not far away. "The wolves, they're here. Wouldn't be long before they catch up" she whispered. She slowed down and shifted her stance backwards. "One... two... no, three... I haven't really fought life ones but I guess its make or break now " she thought. She took out her scythe and started to accelerate towards the werewolves. She licked her lips and bore her fangs. Her eyes turned bloody red. The surrounding atmosphere started to distort as if there were some mysterious force at work. "The name's Arialle!" She lept straight into the soon-to-come bloodbath.

"One down! Two more!" she snarled. The stench of blood permeated the air as she drew her first kill from the unlucky first wolf. She looked like someone from a gore movie; blood spattered all over her dress. "Tch, this is expensive you know!" while fiddling with her dress. A werewolf thought it saw an opening and launched at her; only to hasten its death. Arialle skillfully tilted her head sideways and swung her scythe dead accurate at the beast's heart. A growl followed by a loud THUD. She was smiling... no, grinning. She wrenched out the scythe and licked it. As if taunting the last werewolf standing. "Pft!" she spat. "Disgusting!" She waved her hands, beckoning the werewolf to approach her. Her expression was of pure viciousness and cockiness. The werewolf let out a cry of agony and lurched at the black goddess. "Tch, amateur. Looks like I overestimated you bunch". The deja vu, a roar and a thud.

"Ugh, now my dress is totally ruined". The cold night breeze blew erratically as if it was giggling at the sarcasm. "Its getting early, I need to find a place to rest for the morning" And so, she disappeared into the covers of the dark forest fading into oblivion.

RANDOM THOUGHTS~~~~~~ :D

Romanticism

2010-02-07T03:25:00.000-08:00

The modern sense of a romantic character may be expressed in Byronic ideals of a gifted, perhaps misunderstood loner, creatively following the dictates of his inspiration rather than the mores of contemporary society. - wikipedia

@ bolded. Yes. This is it. :))

Simpuhhhhhhhll.

2010-02-01T08:11:00.000-08:00

Subtle and Sweet. The pitch elevates to oblivion. So ... ethereal.

라푼젤 - Clazziquai

:)

Competition?!

2010-01-29T07:45:00.000-08:00

It sounds pretty crazy. Should I take the plunge? But guilt holds me.

Itami

2010-01-20T08:57:00.000-08:00

One is better than two. But one doesn't like it. So two becomes better than one.

Burden. When you share it, its fine. When you push it, its not fine.

But what's next when you share it and will turn out to be a push?

*/align center*

Woosh of InsPiratioN! :D

2010-01-18T05:35:00.000-08:00

Night of Rain

Tiny sparkles of notes
Strum the melody of subtle
Like a river flow
Notes stream beautifully

Harmonized with the quartet
Chime of cymbals resonate
Though the peak of ascension
The wave dissipated

Hang - ing

Gently but firm
Holding back was not what it seemed to
Alternating in between
Extreme disparities of speed

Gently firm
The emotions leaked through the visible crevices
Hanging onto it seemed
Notes bounced off once another

-------------------------------------------------------

Flipped through her diary
Reminisce wasn't loved
The sense of nostalgia consumed the whole of me
As the tear drops fall onto her image
My memory.
I closed the book and switched channels.

~

Days of forlorness
The void that was within me
Blank and White
I stared and stared
For a long time

I was singing through my heart
and
like a spell, I trapped myself
The endless cycle; when will it stop?

Swaying in the wind so tranquil so breezy
The ripples fanned out
Like tremors that reached the heart
Mesmerised

A wave of petals fluttered within my sight
Spring.
The branches danced in the wind
The fishes were tipping
Watch the birds peck at the cumbs
The sky oh so vast
I am lying on a hill
Watching life...

Instinctive?

2010-01-09T18:36:00.000-08:00

People sometimes hurt themselves. Was it just a wrong choice? Or that it was instinctive?

I believe its the latter.

Pain. You'd shrivel up and barricade. Like a twisted wet rag, the medium leaks.

Don't flood or you'll burn faster.

Like a mimosa... You close up when I caress you gently, even.

No kindness?

2010-01-01T05:34:00.001-08:00

"Kindness is an act of selfishness because when you are kind to someone, you give others a good impression of yourself."

Being kind --> good impression on oneself --> Selfish

Thinking about it, its true. (lol)

So, if there were no impressions, then true kindness exists?

So we are teaching the kids wrong things. (hahaha)

Aura

2009-12-21T08:21:00.001-08:00

I lost touch with my aura...

Desolation.

Sweep-ed

2009-12-13T09:19:00.000-08:00

The feeling of nostalgia. The rush, the dissemination, the realization, the sorrow...

Regrets? null. Just to be there.. not exist there.. for it might get lost. Just a thought.

Swept away. Staying rooted even though.

Aim?

2009-12-06T18:43:00.001-08:00

Occurred to me that... I wanted to do something big in my life.

Making a difference --> Inversely insignificant.

Ache

2009-11-16T08:20:00.000-08:00

If you were never to see me again...

Will I remember you?

The heart aches terribly for the truth... or lie?

Gawd.

2009-11-12T07:30:00.000-08:00

Communicating could probably be associated with math: probability. Trying to match wavelengths is never an easy job. How many times have we got the relevant frequency for each individual correct actually? I personally really suck at this still. I guess the only logical formula for matching wavelengths would be: experience.

And what happens if you tune wrongly? Basically the information gets conveyed but modified too. Yeahhhhh, applying a formula and you got answer wrong cuz somewhere you messed up. And here's your different response with a free gift of Grudges.

Still waiting for the perfect formula descend from upon the heavens. Its called, fantasy actually.

Design

2009-11-06T01:47:00.000-08:00

Question: Would you prefer a design that is like "cool" and "nice" or a design that is so simple and it shockingly fits requirements?

Answer: cool & nice

Reply: But the industry seem to think that simple designs that shockingly fits everything required, is better.

Reply: Yeah, but what the industry thinks is just playing safe & those will usually not be breaking. Won't get any attention. Defeats the purpose.

Breaking. Sounds interesting... Something to think about. :)

Nice phrase again...

2009-11-03T23:38:00.001-08:00

"The tongue weighs practically nothing, but so few people can hold it."

:)

Sleep

2009-10-14T01:18:00.000-07:00

And then suddenly one day, reality told me its true form: Lies

Let me sleep..

Oh wow! Nice one!

2009-10-12T02:48:00.001-07:00

Scenario: Person A got insulted as "fat" by Person B due to an accident. Therefore, started a thread on the forums ( or also known as a topic ) about the experience.

As usual, different opinions and viewpoints started to come in. However, there was this "encouraging(?)" post which I found extremely... contradicting.

I quote and edit bits and pieces of it:

" ...B is so shameless, knock on people still scold other 1st...
....B dun hv the rights to scold pple for being fat....
dun worry, i always believe, what comes around, goes around, who knows,
maybe B's wife/girlfriend is even much more fatter than you. "

*gathers thoughts together*

The author of that post is indeed confusing. Sure, the author defends the victim A, judging B at the start of the post.

Here comes the fun part: Right after the author states the belief of retribution, the author goes and insult B's wife/partner.

Did he just shoot himself in the head? Or should I say... he cursed himself?

Hahaha!

Fin.

**All names and origin are edited for the sake of.. privacy? :/**

Shortened.

2009-10-11T07:56:00.000-07:00

You said it was god's fault; that life became short.

Actually, you could just possibly, I mean possibly(!!!), be the god.

We don't realize how precious is something until it is gone.

and

We don't realize how something is gone is precious.

wait

"Surely everyone knows that?" you say.

but

Seriously, DID you REALIZE?

Grudges, vengeance, hatred spawns. Such delicious irony.

Fin.

Past already?

2009-10-09T03:18:00.000-07:00

"Its always pretty darn ironic

that it is difficult to ignore

the Past

when it was always about

looking forward from it"

- [Glacie]

Separation

2009-09-27T08:03:00.000-07:00

Mock; never can beat reality

Simulation; can sometimes hurt

Memories; buried but still there

Eternity; nothing but a figment of imagination

Figments that create hope and faith. Learn to embrace it and the range of perceptions seem infinite.

Perceive; pierce it all around.

fin.

Necessary Evil cont'd

2009-09-19T20:49:00.001-07:00

So, as promised, my personal elaboration of "necessary evil".

Lets start with a simple example:

Man A has financial problems but he has to feed his family of four. He turns to robbery. This is necessary evil in a nutshell.

I love the irony in this though. How "Necessary" is it actually? There is a possibility of him being pushed away by his family in the end. One sided "love"? Well, in the first place, its an irrational thing. You see this everyday, everywhere.

Okay, its not about "love" so I shall not delve any deeper into that.

You see, by adding the word "necessary" to "evil" makes it a whole lot more complicated. Evil by itself is usually associated with something bad or not accepted. Necessary on the other hand is usually associated with something important which is most of the time, good.

What happens when you fuse something good and bad? Logically, it becomes neutral. Yeah, just like mixing alkaline and acid. Of course, taking into consideration that there might be exceptions for example putting a north pole and south pole together which creates repulsion.

Anyway, here is the point: What is neutral? An analogy (from my experience) : Why no one "likes" to drink water? I mean, yeah, one might hate coffee because of its bitterness or one might like soda because of its sweetness. Water in this case, is bland. It is clear, it is transparent, it goes anyway it wants. Interesting isn't it? So, who is allowed to define what is NEUTRAL?

Here comes the law. Laws are meant to keep things in order. Prevent chaos. Still on the issue of Man A, if he got caught he would still be punished. Because of the fact that he did a crime. However, the law doesn't really take into account of cause and effect and things like that. It is just there to maintain peace. But one can also say that Man A didn't do it on purpose. Its sad isn't it? It is still difficult to win a grey zone debate. Because, it can go either way for either sides. Judge, you play god.

Necessary evil: What are you? I think you are just another opposing side that was grayed.

Good and evil how are we to define it? Are answers really ANSWERS?

Truth. What is it? :)

Simplicity

2009-09-19T09:55:00.000-07:00

Simplicity at its best. You know, it could just be the epitome of communication.

For example, you speak math, you appeal to many people. However, how many of them can understand? Can relate to? It was just either admiration or that minority who connected.

Its excruciating to dawn upon this subtle ideal after such a long time of pondering. It was as if I was blinded by something. Pride? Or maybe ambition.

How about master of both poles; the north and the south.

Old Works, I'm sorry.

New Works, its time.

:)

Add: I was reminded of how the idea of creating something just to depict what it wants to communicate.
Hmm.. how shall I put this into words..

Okay, I remember whilst doing the logo research, most of the successful logos were simple yet meaningful and memorable.

One great example I remembered was the Mitsubishi motors logo. Red with 3 diamonds; arranged in a position like a cross. It resembled the image of a motor propeller to me. [Communication through saying what it is supposed to say] The logo was not overly complex and every little detail was absorbed in a glance. Everyone could connect! Simplicity at its best.

Not too much and not too little. What's required is all there and what's not required didn't need to be there.

Self note: Always don't forget, this semi-dairy's' purpose is unlimited. Ah, the beauty of shades of grey once again.

Cool.

2009-09-18T08:55:00.000-07:00

Necessary evil. Saw this phrase whilst watching a show ( cheesy.. I know). But hell, this got me thinking.

I shall pen a much more detailed thought process on this soon. Just not to forget! :)

Phrase

2009-09-15T08:22:00.000-07:00

"Thoughts are there. But nothing has begun. How about starting something?" - Glacie

:)

Oh.. darn

2009-09-11T09:21:00.000-07:00

I started to slack on my daily commitment.

But then, it shall end. It will start once again. For hope is renewed. I outdid myself. Its fine to be happy. It is fine...

PRESS ON!!!

Compelled to know more

2009-09-08T03:38:00.000-07:00

I was surfing the internet. Came across a forum. Decided to take a look.

There, I saw it. Condescending attitude from one of the forumers.

He condemns and denies every possibility. He is god. The only right person. He has the final say. He always out-reasons.

I'm not going to type what topic were they discussing. But well, an analogy would be something of: A round watermelon is cheaper than the square watermelon (japan). Therefore, the square watermelon is the way to go!

Basically, this "god" totally tries to deny the existence of a round watermelon. Hmm.. well not exactly deny the existence but more to that of deny the PURPOSE of its existence.

For some reason I feel extremely offended but interested in this person. What actually goes on in his mind? First few words that flared out to my mind upon reading his "opinions" and rebuttals are: EGO, ARROGANT, BOORISH, INTELLIGENT.

Yes, intelligent. Apparently he has a on-the-dot kind of reasoning, like a bullet that always hits the bull's eye. Indeed why am I complimenting him? Haha, this is exactly why I got interested.

Once again, how "Great" are these kind of people? Lousy character but sharp minds. (i'm judging again :/ Oh I shouldn't do this...)

Perhaps this is how teamwork beats solo. However, to camouflage the flaws and polish the adept is not easy.

Perhaps what got me interested was that:
Intelligent people are associated with good character personalities and vice versa for Not-so-intelligent people. (Social quota?? Idk, these words just flashed across so might as well add it)

In this case, its a different version : Intelligent with lousy character personality.

Yes, probably once again, it was the irony of it that caught my attention.

Fin.

Which do you belong to?

2009-09-07T08:48:00.000-07:00

I was on a discussion with a few of my acquaintances and we started talking about beliefs and stuff.

Thought it might be interesting to pen this down.

It was about trading. He said we should learn to do honest and healthy trades instead of trying to milk as much as possible from the innocent buyer who doesn't know much.

Sure, as noble as it sounds, it is nice. However, who can deny that reality is a bitch?

In the real world its supply and demand.

Buyers are the ones that need something. Sellers on the other hand are the ones that can fulfill that "need". So?
Obviously the sellers have the upper hand. So whatever you hurl at them; it ain't matter. They have something you want and you need it. What else can you do?

Now, we change the positions of these roles.
What happens if the sellers are the ones who need something and the buyers can fulfill that need? ( It won't be difficult to think of what could a seller need from a buyer )
Also known as desperate sellers.

So depending whose need is much more than its counterpart, the table turns.

Have the knowledge? Game on.

Well, that's a summary on how things roughly work. We tend to make things advantageous to ourselves. And that's how the society as a whole works.

My friend kept arguing that mindsets of people will change over time if we try. He insisted that healthy trades are the way to go. He believes healthy trades are way to go.

So now, we have:
1. The Idealist! "We must have healthy trades!"
2. The Realist! "Its just how we adapt to make our lives easier".

How many realists are able to influence the greater division of the entire population? I mean, if it really worked, then where is the proof?

Which do you belong to?

**I personally prefer being in the shade of grey (maybe because its too undefined? ^^) so I tend to swerve either sides according to my intuition. (so much for logic..:rolleyes:) I am an idealist and realist altogether(wonder if there is an actual term for it...).
HAHA I'm a hypocrite. Are hypocrites really bad? :( **

Fin.

River Flows in You by: Yiruma

2009-09-02T21:56:00.000-07:00

Racing to somewhere else so fast
Where are you going
My eyes delusion ed by you
Your postures mesmerize me

Stop! Please!
Don't go!
Don't let me lose sight of you
Watch me as I seek you

No! Come back!
You seemed so near yet so far
You were in my grasp
Now they're not

You turned back and caught sight of me
I paused
You stare
I remain silent

You ran once again
No! Wait!
I need to tell you something!
I need to tell her

I caught her
Tears welded in both our eyes
Then, they met; our gazes
A moment of serenity

The smiles
The laughters
The tears
The pain

We raced together
Like the wind
We went wherever we wanted
So.. cool

She hugged me
so tightly
so warm
yet so cold

I let my feelings flow
flow into a container
a container where it was supposed to fill
River Flows in You

Expression

2009-09-01T23:08:00.000-07:00

Expressing through a medium.. apparently, that's what artists do. Well actually I do like forms of expression through mediums.

Written or drawing. I wish I could do music though, but I haven't reached anywhere near there.

It'd be quite a nice experience to an audience if I could do a work of DrawIng with WOrds to complement it followed by MusIc to express even more specifically.

Explosion of evocation!!!

1 more Goal to achieve(!?) I'll just have to keep gaining knowledge and manipulate it.

Till that day comes, I'll be waiting! :p

That one about drawing!

2009-08-31T03:17:00.000-07:00

Trying once again to practice my drawings :D Really liked this one ( at header ) and I decided to use it for my blog :p
PS: I took ages for something that simple but I'm really proud of it.

Draw 1 different pose a day.. that's a difficult commitment to make :( Especially someone as lazy as me haha. But this subject is by far the only one which I can completely believe in. Something which I can draw out from the image of my brain.

MYSTIC EYES OF PERCEPTION! Lololol. Wth.

Shades of Grey

2009-08-19T01:57:00.000-07:00

Grey.

So.. dark yet it looks as if its fading out into light.

Eh?

Was it the other way round?

Circle being represented as a shape of unity. Or is it paradoxy?

The beauty of perceptions ~

Learn

2009-08-07T06:09:00.001-07:00

Learning the hard way... is so much more exciting. Don't you think so too? ;)

Love; Feelings; empathy. -> How can we connect?

Sure, if you put your feelings into your work, there will be reciprocation. Its a beautiful yet difficult thing to do. The art of satisfaction? Or the art of communication? Or the art of.. aesthetics?

So much things go by un-noticed. How many more shall be ignored? Pity.

Insignificant

2009-07-15T04:32:00.000-07:00

How small are we in this world. If you thought about it, we are like a tinnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnny part of matter.

Marionette?

2009-07-10T09:22:00.000-07:00

With invisible strings attached to our brains, we are being controlled further than what we know.

How interesting is that?

I wonder... this mysterious thing called "fate".

Nice quote: Opinion

2009-06-23T06:09:00.000-07:00

[Quote=Mordial]

"Opinions are like assholes, everyone has one."

[/QUOTE]

Lol! this is so darn ironic and true at the same time.

Don't end

2009-06-21T07:05:00.000-07:00

I went, I ran, I raced, I reached!
Days passed, time passed, water flows, wind blows...
It ended, its over, once again; the cycle rewinds.

I want to break this chain; this endless chain of repeat.

Trust

2009-06-18T10:28:00.000-07:00

People cannot gain trust from another; unless they trust them.

:)

Together

2009-06-10T01:21:00.000-07:00

Can we get work done alone? Yes.

We can get work done alone? No.

Can we get work done together? Yes.

We can get work done together? No.

But someone said humans are not meant to be alone while others said otherwise.

A bracket is not complete with either one out. :)

Wind

2009-06-07T22:11:00.000-07:00

"You are the wind, no one can stop you where ever you want to go"

I am the wind, no one can stop me where ever I want to go.

The wind moves only if they push; the wind stops if they don't.

Is someone behind you? ;)

Yeah!

2009-06-06T06:00:00.000-07:00

You thought, you had to change for the world.

But then... someone told you to make the world change for you.

So, which would you choose? :)

What is an interpretation?

2009-05-26T03:23:00.000-07:00

This is my interpretation.

Figment of imagination

2009-05-24T23:38:00.000-07:00

As I walk endlessly throughout the darkness
My heart beats fast
My pulse rises
My head spins
Yet my eyes remain dead

This small figment of imagination is not real
Sleeping throughout the journey
Dreams and reality collide
Where am I now?

The sleeping forest whispers
The burning sun yawns
The grasses giggle
The earth is soft

This virtual journey is taking its toll
Where am I?
Is this reality?
I continue to move forward

Honestly, I want to stay here
This world of endless journey
This world without goals
This world without choices

This small figment of imagination is not real
Sleeping throughout the journey
Dreams and reality collide
Where am I now?

Stop there! Halt! Freeze!
Its dangerous over there
Don't advance anymore
Or be engulfed by the darkness

Its reality
Its not a figment of imagination
Its virtual
Its a figment of imagination

As I advance aimlessly
I still am walking
Am I already in the darkness?
Or have I stopped..

This small figment of imagination is not real
Sleeping throughout the journey
Dreams and reality collide
Where am I now?

omg. epic train of thoughts D;

2009-05-22T07:36:00.000-07:00

How do we know anything if everything is not everything? Logically, we need to know what is everything. Illogically? We believe it. Seeing is believing. Is seeing believing in the first place? Is believing seeing in the first place?
We do not tend to explore these places. Why? Fear of the unknown? However, there are exceptions. But why? Because most are timid?
Although we carry out these thoughts everyday too? ie: Physics, Chemistry, Geography etc. Discovery of the unknown.

Did we choose not to delve? Logically it would be that it never occurred to us. Illogically? We aren't "programmed" to do things like that.

What happens when we find an answer? Isn't it a good feeling? Then why aren't we delving deeper? Its not harmful right? Still, there are different answers. The negative and the positive.
Knowledge is still useful as a whole. Positive -> happy addition; Negative -> sad but experience up.
Therefore, knowledge is good.

How do we know(II)
We find the root definition. So that different conclusions can be proven. However, since there are so many different possibilities of a definition, how do we even know which is the root? Is there even a root?
I don't think I've seen one. But even if there is, what makes it 'solid' that its not a possibility?
Assuming this is a never ending cycle, I can also conclude that there is no root. And that 'roots' are derived from possibilities. Probably due to the need for a 'general rule', so that work can proceed.

God?

Action caused by reason. And then there's good and bad. So what's bad and what's good? If everyone has their own different thinking, wouldn't that cause lots of problems? eg:" do we punish theives even though they are doing it for a good cause?"
Everything isn't in an irreparable mess now though. I think there is a 'system'. Wait, is it even a system? It could be another 'general rule' that caters to everyone such that we don't get stuck.

Next,how do you define bad and good?
INTUITION. eg: "Hey! That man is spraying on the wall." and you think to yourself:
1. Wow, I wonder what nice graffiti he'd be coming out with.
2. Hey! that's bad! The wall would be dirtied.
Lets ASSUME we are not taught anything about vandalism and graffiti. How do we know what that man is doing is good or bad? Some would think this way and that way.. and why would majority of the people vote either side? (eg. why good won bad? or bad won good?) Of course, decisions based on this can be from experience too.
But still, in a way, I think its probably we are "programmed". Like robots yes, inbuilt with instructions.
So, there must be some form of "higher" being that "programmed" us. And what's that? God would be the best example I can think of. So is religion like a the set of codes? The instructions that were programmed into us so we won't go the wrong way; we follow it simply because we are "programmed" to.
It would "defy" the natural flow if we weren't. So probably following a religion gives a sense of security?
Although there are many different religions; they all come from the same point. Which is our "creator".
I can't know which religion is the true code that we were programmed with but at least i do know the origins are similar.
Therefore, God exists?!

If you've notice, so many questions remained unanswered. And most are answered...with more new questions coming out.

Long post is long xD

Sad? Interesting!

2009-05-20T08:27:00.000-07:00

Its sad; from a general viewpoint. But its interesting; to me.

How fascinating humans are, they create and destroy. They cry and smile. They laugh and hate.
Ironic isn't it?

So what is the truth? The ultimate goal. The limit. The end. Some may refer it as Death because its unexplored. Has anyone reached there? Oh, did something just pile up again?.

It's never ending. Its not a cycle. Its a straight path. But its a cycle? No, is it REALLY a cycle? It just seems like one. It isn't. Its a result. Oh, wait, now it seems like a cycle. Reading this now is already a cycle anyway.

Do we choose our path and be led by it? Or do we choose our path and lead the way? Wait! Must we choose? Why can't we make our own path? Oh, another one; can't we choose but not move?

Plenty of possibilities. So many, that it hasn't decreased for me. But ironically, it's my clock/calendar/date/time. Reset? Cycle? Everyday is new isn't it? A good representation for now.

So, I'm still moving :)

ps: Well, apparently this is supposed to to be classified according to "Philosophy". I dunno how I got here. LOL.

Losing it

2009-05-19T09:28:00.000-07:00

Losin' it ~
Do this
Do that
Do those

Great!
No!
What?
Huh?

Hey!
Hmm?
Go!
Why?

They!!
Did they do?
What they did?
Why they didn't?

Cool!
Cool me!
We will be fine~
Oh why don't you know this?

Hey! Its ending!
Hey! Its started!
Hey! Its happening!
Hey! Its over.

Lost it?

Alone again

2009-05-18T03:23:00.000-07:00

Just had a sudden inspiration :)

As I browse through all these pages
I remembered you
These overflowing feelings
These overflowing emotions

As I reminisce those times
I remembered those smiles
My heartaches so terribly
My heart weeps so sadly

Definitely I'll never leave you
Always be by your side
If only I had a choice
Time wasn't on my side

I want to hold on to those times
I don't want to be alone again
Not anymore
Never again

The next time we meet
I'll treasure you like never ever
I'll never leave your side
No never, never again

If I had one wish
Just one wish
I'd like you to be by my side
Just once more

Your smiles always never fail to brighten my day
Your gentle voice calls out to me
Your graceful gestures
I still haven't forgotten

I don't want this sad parting
Can I have another chance?
Can I have one wish?
Ohh alone again...

Just started..

2009-05-13T05:40:00.000-07:00

I just started. Will take sometime for it to start flowing in my pace :)